ok. Hmm. On an entirely different note... had cell this week... talked abt having a vision , perserverence...dreams, visions...how God can mold our dreams into his vision... Something abt meeting us halfway. My dream? ... I want to be on stage, in front of a massive audience, Broadway, a west end theater... to be an actor, a singer... a dancer?... have my own star on Hollywood boulevard? ... use all tt for God? I really do...want to be able to use all tt for God.
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It said tt we shld ask God to give us a passion for the lost...and really sometimes, for the love of go..er..peanuts, I have no clue how some will start crying while praying for some total stranger... tt just escapes me. Really it does

Well, I certainly cant say I now have an immense passion for the lost, but I think I got a small taste of what its like just know. I cannot ,do not understand how many say they cant find Nirvana , peace, wodeva u choose to call it, but yet continue to say tt they still arnt ready to jump into the arms of One who can give them all tt they seek...someone who will fill tt void in their souls. Was talking to a friend of mine, and well 'religion' popped up. You know, maybe because shes a friend, and I do already care for her....but I just cant help but feel an ache in my heart that she feels like a "lost sheep" but yet still isnt 'ready'. So I told her tt it was fine if we not talk abt it now ,if you're not ready... Suddenly i song popped into my haed so i shared it with her...


Before the world began, you were on His mind
and every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only son
everything was done so you would come

Come to the Father, tho you gift is small
open hearts open lives He will take them all
the power of His word , the power of His life
everything was done so would come
(yea we know this song dont we)

I suppose the words to tt song never hit as hard as it did just know...when I was half way through typin it... I suddenly felt little warm droplets cascading down my cheeks... well lets just say those droplets turned to streams.. get? yes I did look quite silly trying to type while wiping furiously at my face...sort of like trying to drive with your hand sticking out the windown wiping the windscreen. anyways...I...I just.....I ...urgh! ok, it just really hurts that she cant find the peace she see seeks... *sigh*
guess i'll just continue P.U.S.H -ing

Than theres this other friend of mine, new believer, abt 2 mths old. Shes going to her church's bible study grps and mid week and all tt...but she really doesnt look anywhere near ...er... 'guided'. example? Once we had a convo with a fellow believer and she was questioning faith, how its like politics, comparing it to this and tt... how its like God dangles a carrot infront of us, with the promise of eternal life tt He's the only way.... so ppl believe cuz of tt incentive... I shld have just told her the verse abt how carnal man er....er..oh now I remember why I didnt...cuz I cant remember the whole exact verse... (time to get back to doin memory verses) ... anyway, u know which verse im referring to right? ...Sometimes I see her sitting there, looking like shes got the world on her mind... man! I just you know, tell her to lay it all at the cross... believe with whats in here *points to heart*.... not with whats in here *points to head*

tts something which I have to constantly kick myself in the arse over too... Well... *exhales*

Love
tango

Oh dearie me... how long has it been? since june? *counts* 6 bloody mths? how looong indeed i say.
Its been half a yr since my last update. Half a bleeding yr this has laid dormant, waiting silently for a new lease of life. Well now...i cant exactly say...i cant guaratee tt i'll constantly update this - simply beacuse im way too busy and i really see no point in doing thoes day-to-day updates. *groan* I'll try my darndest to put somethign up frm time to time aye.

Anyhoo... the Os are over, as many do know... unfortunatly so is Joseph *sniff*. Heh bloody thing always makes me tear up. I do seriously miss the reharsals and them little get-togethers b4 and after reharsals. Miss the teachers, miss mic checks... yes im sounding pretty much like a sorry sob right abt now. O well...

Back to sch every tues (in due time, weds) and thurs to help the choir... cant seem to part with that sordid place now can I... hahah wretched sch, even post-graduation i am still a loyal slave to thee.

Alright than, i guess tts all for now. Dotn want to bloody over do it now aye...

ta~

with love
-Tango

p.s hey TPE hows the blue?? like it? *evil laugh*

p.p.s hey u, yea u there young fella. On the off chance u're reading this, cld u pls , for the love of....urgh..just stop walking on eggshells ard me ok. (yea im talking to you...the one whos DVD im abt to wear out)